Master Procrastinator

I'm putting off working on my 3-4 page paper thats due Monday. I haven't even started it. Bad News Bears. Anyways, since I last posted, I have been extremely busy. Which is both good and bad. On Sunday, I had a sorority class/meeting and they told us all the stuff we have to do for the new member process. There is tons to do...All while working and going to school and hanging with Carl. Needless to say, it's definitely overwhelming. And on Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday, I was definitely feeling the pressure. Mini anxiety attack to the point of tears on Wednesday. I talked to my mom and my big, Ashley, about it, and as of right now I'm feeling better about the whole thing.

After my class on Sunday, I went to hang out with people from work. I had SUCH a great time. I can't wait to do it again. There's so much stuff I want to do and just not enough time in the day.

Lately, I've been thinking about the past couple years of my life. It might have a lot to do with my Screenwriting assignment, but whatever. I've been thinking about how sometimes, I would still like to go back to how things were. Even though it was over a year ago. And it bothers me that I still think that. I don't think about it very often, but just lately it's been creeping into my mind. Another thing that bothers me is that I. STILL. CARE. What the hell is wrong with me?? I need to stop it. Seriously. I don't know why I care because it's obviously not reciprocated. And I don't know why I care because right now, I am happier and more well adjusted than I ever have been. I am doing exactly what I want to be doing. I'm doing well in school, making my own friends and maintaining my old ones, and I got out of Bloomington. I am way better off. And I wish these feelings would just be gone for good. I'm done with them.  And I'm going to be dramatic on this one and sum this up with a lyric.

"You can take back your memories, they're no good to me"